Hello, it is nice to meet you dear reader. My name is Alla Nicole Davis. If you do not know or recognize my name, that is OK. I have not made any big contributions to the Medical, Science, Math or any other fields. I am a simple working class person with a simple boring life. Even though I am not a person of importance, I still feel it is necessary to document my journey through life. One day, like the people before me, I will pass away and this document will hopefully live on
Even though my name is Alla, it was not the name I was given at birth. My name at birth was Ronald Andrew Davis II. I was born and assigned a sex at birth, designation, male. I grew up male, and followed the male norms for my time. At age 53, I shocked the people around around me when I announced to them that I am in fact not male but instead female. To most everyone within my orbit, this revelation came out of left field and for some it was hard to process.
What most people did not know, is that I had been wresting with my own personal demons since early life. There were many aspects of my life that did not feel correct to me but I was taught that I had to live up to a certain code of ethics. For example, I was told that men do not cry or that men must present themselves in a “manly way”
Since coming out, I have learned many things about myself and the world around me. In this document, I hope to explore those items. This document will be a history of my life and the things that helped shaped and mold me to become the person that I am today.
As I said once before, my life is not interesting or exciting so you might think, then why bother. The reason I want to write down my thoughts are because, they might be able to help someone else who might be a similar situation that I was in and they can use the information within to help with their struggles. When I came out as a transgendered woman, I had done almost no research about being “trans” even though I pride myself on my ability to research subjects. The truth is that once I told myself that I was transgender, I was afraid that if I dug too deep, I would find that I was a sham or an imposter. I was worried that I would find out that in fact, I was a sick twisted pervert. I had felt over the years that my thoughts and feelings were not normal and even though I had it in my mind that I was transgender, I did not want anything to disrupt my new belief.
Therefore, what you the reader will find within these pages are issues that I struggle with, key points in my life and problem resolution assuming I have found the solution.
I have very few problems resolved.
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